Wednesday, April 25, 2012

[A Student Again?]

I've been thinking about, weighing the pros and cons for, and studying the logistics for going back to school (likely MSU) to get a BFA in studio art and graphic design. I know I did the right thing when I dropped it as a major my freshman year because I was overwhelmed with the heavy workload (two studio art classes, an art seminar, an art history class, intermediate Spanish, and college algebra), my schedule (the previously mentioned classes, plus singing with Unique Ensemble gospel choir), adjusting to college life, and having too many studio art classes for my abilities at the time. It was the wrong time for me to focus on art then, and, in fact, my switch to creative writing taught me to examine the details first, whole picture later, which ultimately helped my art skills.

But I missed it and regretted it ever since. And now it's time. I may take a class this fall if I'm able to afford it, but I missed the FAFSA and scholarship application deadlines, so I wouldn't go back full-force (though still part-time) until next fall (unless, in the off chance I have money enough left over from my settlement (unlikely, considering all the doctors' bills I have to pay) to be able to pay tuition). Either this week or next week, I'm going to stop by MSU campus and discuss it with the registrar folks. I feel great deal of peace about this decision, though the financial side of it is a little intimidating.

But it's time. And I'm excited about it. Ever since my concussion, as I've mentioned before, my mind hasn't wanted to think as much in terms of words as much as with images. Perhaps it will open a door for me into a full-time graphic design position... or, if I have the opportunity to get an MFA, a chance to teach art at a university. One way or another, though, it can't hurt to have another degree or two, and possibly an internship could open up a door somewhere. I'm more confident in my artistic abilities now, anyway, as I've grown as an artist just within the past year since I started painting again. I'm good... not the best, but I am a good artist, and I think I'd be limiting myself if I didn't try to pursue it, since art is my first love, even before writing. And, if nothing else, it will help me build my portfolio and open up other mediums I can use with my freelance work.

I'm not asking you to, but if you'd like to help me financially in going back, you can always use my Google checkout to leave a donation. My goal is still to do any and all school without placing any further strain on my parents, financially or mentally (i.e. worrying about how I'll make ends meet), but I would like to jump right in this fall if I could. I feel up to it, especially since my new migraine preventative does seem to be making something of a difference. It's not dramatic yet, but I've actually had a couple of migraines that hit but didn't last more than a couple of hours, though normally if I get one, I'm stuck with it for a few days, even sometimes a few weeks. And since it's also an antidepressant, it seems to be keeping my anxiety in check (somewhat).

What do you think? I'm planning on doing this, but it's not set in stone. If it's too much of a financial burden for now, I'll end up sticking with my freelance work and independent experiments. I do hope it works out, though. I prefer to finish what I start if I can at all.

EDIT: I applied! It looks like I'll be starting in the fall, unless I run into financial hurdles I can't handle right now. And I added a link to my Google Checkout account both on the side bar and in this blog entry. Classes are going to cost around $600 for each three-hour course, unless I get scholarships/grants. So, it is there if you want to help me out a little. :)

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