Tuesday, October 28, 2008

[The Joys of Simultaneously Teaching and Taking Classes]

*sniffle, snort, wheeze, hack, cough*

I adore autumn.  I really do.  Of all the seasons of the year, this is my favorite--except for one nasty little detail: sinus infections.  Between allergies and the change in air pressure, I spend close to 80% of my time from now until April or May fighting mucus and sinus headaches.  So if you see me sniffling and honking in the next few months, you'll understand why. 

I had insomnia last night... I think I finally fell into a good, deep sleep around 4:30 a.m... I had to get up at 8:30, and I really wanted to get up at six to work on an essay that was really due last week but for which I got an extension.  As it is, I'm planning to go home after teaching today, instead of attending my own classes, to sneak in another two hours of sleep and *knock on wood* finish that stupid paper.  It's not a difficult paper, really, but for the life of me, I just can't make any headway.  It's the pits.

In other ponderings, I wonder when most students start to tap into their ability to think critically.  I find myself wondering that a lot this semester.  For example, what should one do when something is due every Friday but one cannot remember to do it on Friday?  How about do it earlier in the week instead of protesting that "we need to change the due dates!"  What should one do when one cannot remember what day of the week something is due?  How about look in the syllabus that the teacher both passed out in class and emailed everyone in early August?  Just a thought.  Sigh.  Looks like I have another patronizing lecture awaiting my performance today. 

In other news, I'm going to be a dryad for Halloween this year: brown sheet-toga, autumn-leaf garlands, and green ribbons pair with fairy-eyes and brown-tinted skin shading.  It's gonna rock.  Pictures pending!

Thursday, October 23, 2008

[My Brain Hurts]

...so do my fingers, come to think of it, but the brain takes clear precedence over stinging guitar fingers.  I'm supposed to take a midterm and turn a paper in for Old English, but only one is going to happen at this point.  I ran into a seemingly insurmountable wall in my research until very recently, and I'm just now getting to read through my materials.  I've sent in a "please have mercy on me!" email for the paper, and I'm going to try to send it in by email by Saturday.  I don't know what else to do, as I need sleep in addition to studying for the midterm.  Why am I writing here/wasting valuable study/sleep time?  Well, I need to vent or I may blow a gasket. 

Why do I want to get a PhD, again?  It wouldn't kill me to teach basic composition at community college... Sigh.  Que sera, sera.  Basically, my decision will come in January when I hear back from Mizzou and OSU.  If both reject my applications, then I take it as a sign that I'm to go ahead and jump into a community college teaching position, for a few years anyway.  If one or both accept me, then I'll tighten my belt and journey on, erstwhile hoping I don't turn gray before graduating.  Ha.  I am tired, though. 

So wherever God wants me, I'm wide open.  You may remember how hard I fought to go back to Truman for my master's degree, but that door slammed in my face (thank you crappy economy), and amidst all my resistance and nervous twitching, I eventually saw that Springfield really was where I was supposed to be.  Yes, that's right, I actually got something to get through my thick, stubborn skull.  So I'm open to what the future holds.  All the same, I dread starting over again.  I found my niche (faster than I did during my bachelor's degree and something I never did in high school), and I'm getting ready to leave it already.  Hey, I love the notion of traveling, but I want a home.  I want to be settled somewhere. 

Oh, and I want a puppy.  I miss Sassy like mad, and nothing suits that part of me like puppy love.  Darned apartment dwelling.

Now: nap first, study second... or study first, nap second?  I'm going to try the latter, but we'll see if that works out at all.  Good night, kids. 

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

[Another Year Older, Another Year... Wider?]

Twenty-five... go figure...

Anyway.  I'm going to be running ragged from now until May.  My graduation list is about a mile long: writing a thesis that has not one word yet written, coming up with questions for and taking comprehensive exams, taking the GRE subject test... not to mention teaching and taking classes like during a normal year.  Not that I want to rush through my life or anything, but I'll be so glad to be finished with acquiring degrees and just teach and live my life.  Wait... what life?   Ha.

I threw myself a 25th birthday party, inviting girlfriends from school and church.  Overall, about nine people came, and it was a good energy.  We played Cranium, ate too much, and laughed ourselves silly.  All-in-all, a good time had by all and confirmation that I love my friends!

So ends another random blog entry about nothingness because I felt the need to update but lacked the time and energy to be original.

Thursday, October 09, 2008

Monday, October 06, 2008

[New Kids in Town]

My new cell phone:
My new computer:

Now, if I could just get these damned papers graded already and get over this stinkin' sinus infection, life will be good.

Call me. :-D

Thursday, October 02, 2008

[Off to a Brilliant Start]

This morning, I meant to wake up at 7:00.  Upon setting my alarm, I realized that that would only give me three-and-a-half hours of sleep, so I decided to reschedule for 8:00.  I went to bed.  My alarm went off at 8:00, and in my drunken-like state of sleepiness, I reset my alarm for 9:00.  Baaaad judgment.  I usually leave around 10:00 on Tuesday/Thursdays, so that gave me an hour to take a shower, check my email, put on make-up (trust me, this morning I needed it!), make my breakfast/lunch/dinner for the day, and make a thermos of my frappuccino. 

Yeah, you can see where this is going.

9:50 rolls around, and I'm just getting out of the shower.  I throw on a hoodie, jeans, some quick eye make-up, and run a brush through my crazy hair.  I realize that I'd been too lazy the night before to rinse out my blender, so leaving the spigot open, I run detergent and water through to bleach it clean.  Then, genius that I am, I forget to close the spigot.  As my coffee is percolating, I grab the last of my milk and start pouring it in the blender.  Much to my horror, I see milk spreading all across my counter, down my dishwasher, and onto the floor.

At this point, it's 10:05.

I promptly use half a roll of paper towels to clean up my mess and stop it from spreading underneath the dishwasher.  The seconds tick by.  It's 10:10... no breakfast, no lunch, no dinner, and worst of all... no caffeine.  Pissed off, I put a lid on the tuna I'd just dumped in a bowl, put it in the fridge, pour out the last ounce of milk, grab my bag, and, ignoring my pounding headache, run out the door.

Then, after I park and catch the shuttle, I nearly get off at the wrong stop.  I'm halfway down the aisle, before I realize that if I get off here, I'll have a ten-minute walk.  I sit down, nonchalantly, and realize that today is not going to be my most intelligent of days.

As it is, I'm sitting here with three pages left to write for my night class and realizing that, in order to get them finished, I'm going to have to skip my Old English lit class.  I'm in a writing mode now, and I don't want to lose it before I finish.  Besides, as much I love my OE class, it's at that time of day when my blood sugar plummets and I can barely stay awake--and with today's screwy diet and pounding migraine, there would be no hope for me anyway. 

Oh, well... at least I've got this freakin' awesome new computer to do my writing on.  That almost makes it all worthwhile!

It can only get better from here. :)