Tuesday, November 14, 2006

[Music and Recovery]


I expect that this entry will be fairly brief. It's after midnight, and tomorrow's my extra-long day. But it's been awhile since I've posted, and thus I feel the need to write my thoughts.

I'm nearing the end of a rather vicious battle with a sinus infection. My doctor gave me a double dose of antibiotics since I seem to have so much trouble kicking these things and keeping them down. The first few days are rough, and my mind tends to be even more scatterbrained. But after the midpoint of treatment, suddenly I find myself with the energy and focus needed to do my homework! It's amazing not to feel despair looking at my list of things to do.

It's kind of funny, really; I'm sick so often that it's gotten to where I can't easily distinguish between me sick and me healthy. It seems like I'm always fighting something. Frankly, I blame it on surgeries 11 through 16. I think they pretty much mortally wounded my immune system.

The roommates and I have decorated the Boomchuck Pixy Townhouse (our apartment) for Christmas already (brief explanation: only 2 weeks after Thanksgiving, we'll be moving). My piano looks romantic and inhabited by fairies. We have white Christmas lights around the living room, the end of which I've draped over my piano and interwoven with the red-and-orange runner and the artificial grapevine. It's soooooo pretty!

Speaking of my piano: I've been playing again. It's awesome to play without obligation; suddenly I have no difficulty in practicing for an hour; five years ago, it tortured me to sit there for 20 minutes! I love music so much. I sat there playing this weekend, and as I played O Holy Night, I forgot about everything but the sound of the music just carrying me away. I actually played, not just practiced, and it's as though my love for music has been reborn. I'm so looking forward to December in that once I'm finished with work (or as will probably be the scenario for a month or two, job-hunting) each day, I can sit down and do those things I love, like music, painting, and creative-writing. I've missed being able to devote focused time on them without feeling guilty for not doing something else.

Well, I need to go to bed. I have more to say, but I can't justify sitting up much longer--I have to get up too early. Good night, and may His face shine on yours!

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