Friday, December 09, 2005

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Friday, December 09, 2005

Currently Watching
The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe
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It was like reading Narnia for the first time all over again! 

I love books... heck, I'm an English major... but somehow, my imagination can only take me so far, and it was just so amazing to see this book that I so love added to in my mind.  The colors are vibrant at last, I can finally see the kids as three-dimensional people rather than perfect angels, and at last, with a mighty roar, I can visually fathom the power described of Aslan... the King.  

In less than 12 hours, the stress of this week will be alleviated at last.  Finals, after this kind of a week, are going to be a breeze.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

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I was sitting here (procrastinating, natch), trying to figure out why Narnia seems like such a real world to me.  I know that sounds odd, but I'm not quite normal, so just bear with me, please.  I think it's because it really is the closest way for me to come to terms with two such paradoxical ideas of God.  It's really hard to grasp that the same One who is so mighty, so awe-inspiring, so high... all these concepts that even on a human level are beyond us, and then when it's in the God of the universe, it's even harder to come to terms with His holiness.  We are so tiny and can't help but be silenced of our foolishness in His presence.
And then He is our closest friend.  There is none closer... Friend.  We throw that word around a lot with Him, but I don't think we really grasp the impact of that one either.  What do we do with our friends?  We laugh, we joke around, we have deep discussions, we cry on one another's shoulders.  Think of it... sharing a joke with the Almighty?  And yet He is the greatest friend we have, because He is the inventor of friendship, and we can laugh, cry, joke, talk, etc. with this Great One.
And if I try to think this out any further, that headache that finally left about 15 minutes ago is going to come running back, so I'll stop now.

Monday, December 05, 2005

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Monday, December 05, 2005
HALLELUJAH!!! NO MORE ASTRONOMY LABS EVER!!! In fact, no more ANY labs again ever!!! Whoo-hoo!!!

One day closer... one day closer...

Alright, feeling better.  I think I've got enough on my presentation tomorrow, since she said she'll be very lenient, and I'm just not going to kill myself to get it finished.  I'll just have my friend peer edit my thesis statement and proposal rather than a rough draft (I'm pretty sure I don't have to turn in a rough draft, only a peer edit sheet), and I email the French professor explaining my dilemma, telling him I'd bring my assignment by this afternoon (it's just homework, and I'm doing alright there, so I think I can afford to be a tad late on that one), and then I'll have all afternoon to study for the astronomy quiz and write up the extra credit assignment (or what I can remember from class).

Whew.  Thank You, my Lord.  I think some sleep is now in order.  I'm glad I slept about 6 hours this afternoon/evening... so merely two and a half hours won't kill me.  

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I'm seriously sooooooo frustrated with school right now... well, school+me.  The more stuff I have due, the lesser my capacity to sit my butt down and do the crap.  I just found out that I have to give a presentation over one of my term papers tomorrow, rather than later in the week, and I don't have it anywhere near finished.  Plus, I need to have a rough draft of another term paper by morning so I can have a friend peer edit it.  Oh, and I have a French assignment and an astronomy quiz and extra credit assignment due.  Most of this was not originally on the agenda for tomorrow.  And here I sit, xanga being the most coherent thoughts I can seem to string together, and the closer I get to morning, the more I just want to fill my car up with gasoline and drive off into the night without looking back.  I'd even just go in my jammies as I am at this point.

This semester, I'll be honest, has been horrific.  Granted, I've got the best housemates in the freakin' world, and each day brings me a little closer to getting to go do what God wants me to do (yay missions!)... but academically, I've never struggled so much or felt so miserably stressed out.  And yes, I am aware that I ought to let go and let God.  Duh.  Trust me, old news here.  But when it gets to the point where every day I have class, I have all my classes and all my assignments due at the same time, I suddenly feel like I can't breathe.  And that my friends, is where I am right now.  For real, if it weren't for mom and dad counting on me graduating soooooo much... I'd be gone.  I love you all so much, and truly, my friendships with you are what keep me sane.  But I really feel like I'm at breaking point.  I can't see myself even pulling off a C in astronomy at this point, and I still can't seem to focus on Medieval literature enough to write a speech that includes researched information.  She did say she'd be lenient due to the short notice, but at this rate, I'll have to be hoping for a miracle.

To sum this up:

Sunday, December 04, 2005

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Don't anyone try to tell me how I'm going to freeze my arse off in England.  The low for London for the past few days has been 20 degrees higher than the high here.  And that's normal, 10-15 degrees difference there.  Yeah, it doesn't get hot there in the summer, but y'know, after two summers in a house without central air, I think I'll appreciate it... a lot. 

You know who you are.

Saturday, December 03, 2005

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Currently Listening
By Relient K
13. Life After Death and Taxes (Failure II)
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And this is how I choose to live
As if I'm jumping off a cliff
knowing that you'll save me [2x]
and after all the stupid things I did
there's nothing left that you'd forgive
because you already forgave me
yeah you already forgave me
Never forget
there's life after death and taxes
Forgiveness come
and all of the rest
is what passes away
Death and decay can't touch us now

I got some much-needed socialization tonight, in spite of the ole migraine.  Really, guys, the migraines aren't that bad, so don't be overly concerned... they're just headaches (with the same cause as a classic migraine) that come around a whole lot.  They're not that bad, I just don't like to be on my feet much with one, because that's when they tend to get unbearable.  When I'm sitting, I'm in good shape.  :)  Anywayyyyyy...

It's kind of funny how more I need to be around people, the more I resist.  I hide in my room more and more, get scared of human interaction, and find myself in a catch-22.  And tonight, I almost didn't go to the Damascus Road music thingie, because I was tired and feeling unsocial... but I'm glad I went.  I had good conversations, saw people I haven't seen in ages and may not get to see much after this month due to their graduations... Meh.

Ok, that's about all the coherent thoughts I can manage to put together, so I'm outta here.  Oh, and I love this song.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

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Currently Listening
By Relient K
7. More Than Useless
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It's December freakin' 1st.  And it's snowing... hard.  I went to WalMart (I love tea, but I need some variety, please), and boy am I grateful for four-wheel-drive!

Highlight of the evening:  CCF service (all about II Cor. 12, God's power in our weakness), Stephanie preaching, suddenly shouting at Derek, "Hey! ARE YOU ASLEEP?!?!?"


"Then what was the last thing I said?"


"You were asleep!!!!"

"I'm sorry... it's a weakness."

Yay for laughter!!!

Senior sems are tomorrow and Friday, and this semester, quite a few are people I started freshman year with.  Do you know how unnerving that feels?  *shudder*

(Andrea and Sunny will understand this one:)  I *heart* Mr. Darcy.  Haha.

Ok, now I'm verging on sleep deprivation insanity, so I better stop.  But one observation: ever notice how you can be totally wiped, but for some reason, you just can't make yourself settle down and go to bed?  Bleh...