Thursday, April 22, 2004

[Late Night Ramblings]

So here it is, almost 2 am... I really should be asleep.  But, I'm not.  Why?  I have no idea.  I'm tired enough.  I have to get up for a 9 am class, so I'm going to be dead tired tomorrow morning, I already know.  But I'm sitting here, in front of my computer, looking for reasons to stay awake.  And for the life of me, I can't figure out why.  I'm yawning wide enough to split my head wide open. 

And here I'm supposed to be smart.  Hmph.  Go figure.

So let's talk about this semester a little bit... if I'm going to be procrastinating sleep, I might as well bring the blog up to speed the rest of the way.  Scholastically, OY VEY... My poor head.  I'm only taking the bare minimum of 12 hours, yet I feel like I'm stretched out as far as I can stretch.  Can you say stress?  Yeesh.  It's insane.  They told me Truman was a hard school, but hard wasn't nearly descriptive enough.  I'm doing alright... I think.  But man-oh-man, the effort it takes to do "alright" is nothing like the old "alright" efforts.  In fact, it's nothing like the old "really good" efforts.  Argh.  Ok... I'm done rambling about grades.  After all... there are another 6000 students in the same boat as me, so I've no right to complain. 

As for the social and spiritual parts of my life, they have both improved.  Which, of course, does not make Satan too happy.  I think that's why I've had so many headaches and other problems this semester... attacks of discouragement.  Perhaps.  I've gotten more involved in Campus Christian Fellowship (CCF), and in doing so, I've just grown so much spiritually.  For the first time, really, I feel like I have friends who I can go up to and really say, hey, can you pray with me? I'm going through something and I need some prayer support.  And I know I'll have it.  For once in my life, I have close friends on the same or a higher spiritual level as me.  That's so amazing to me.  It really is.  And these friends really care about me.  It's just so cool for me.  I really have no words.  God has blessed me.  It's going to break my heart to leave them this summer.  And several will be graduating--even sadder.   They have no idea how much they've encouraged me this year. 

God is so awesome.  While I have to go through a lot of crap, He never fails to bless me in the midst.

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