Tuesday, April 27, 2004

[I Need a Hug... a Freakin' Huge Hug]

I'm drained.  I've spent the last two weeks or so in a frenzy, and I still have two weeks of frenzying left to go.  Now, I realize I'm not alone in this, but I guess in my company, I feel all the more alone, because we're all so busy we don't have time to really give each other much of a hand right now.

Last week my dad had major heart surgery--an aorta bypass--and that drained me simply from worry.  They were 4 hours late taking him in to surgery, then the surgery itself took four times longer than it was supposed to... and here I was waiting by the phone five hours away from the hospital waiting to hear if he was out of surgery and if he was ok.  Petrified?  No joke.  Hello ulcerville.  (Some of you may know I'm adopted by my grandparents... so that's who I'm referring to.  Me and my dad are pretty tight, so I was a wreck.) 

Finals are coming up.  Need I say more?  They start a week from Thursday.  Then there are all the tests between now and finals.  Gah.

My foot.

The Unique Ensemble concert was postponed until Sunday, which made things really tight for me, and since I have extra responsibilities with that, yeah.  I got very little else accomplished this weekend.  Oh, and now they've gone and added another performance on for Friday.  Great.  I wouldn't mind, except I found out today--about 3 days beforehand.  I don't even know what time it is yet.  *groan*

I hate to say it, but I've been slacking off on my Bible time too.  I wanna kick myself for it, but my kicking foot is out of commission, so I guess I'll have to settle for smacking myself upside the head.  I can't justify it by saying I don't have time... after all, I've been playing with this thing for the last few days.  I haven't thought about it.  I've looked up a couple scriptures, but otherwise, I've been lazy.  However, I'm writing this to hold myself accountable that I'll sit down and read tonight when I get off work... not just read a couple sentences, but actually delve like I should.  Next time I write here, I'll have to admit whether I did or I didn't. 

Ha... why do I need someone to kick my butt when I do I fine job on my own? ;) 

*ahem*  Anyway, moving on.

Please pardon my vent... though I complain, my life isn't as "bad" as I may make sound.  I just needed to get some things off my chest. 

I did get my acceptance packet from the University of Strathclyde in Glasgow for my study abroad for next spring.  I'm stoked.  Dude... I'll get my own bedroom and study area!  I think I'm almost more excited about that than Scotland!  Ok, not really, but still... hehe.   Oh, and I'll be more than happy to accept donations... ;) It's going to cost me a bit more to be there than it costs me to be here at Truman.  Plus, I won't have a car.  I'll have to take the bus and the Underground everywhere.  Tuition, room, and board are higher, and food costs more.  I'll be working hard this summer to save up money.  Every little bit will help.  Besides, there is so much I want to do and see while I'm over there.  This is a once-in-a-lifetime chance, and I don't want to miss anything while I'm there. 

Work is almost over, so I guess I'll ponder more some other time. 

But I'm serious about the hug.  I could use one.  I could always use one.

[UPDATE: Yes... I was a good girl after work.  I did what I said I would do.]

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