Thursday, July 10, 2003

[Obligatory Singleness Lamenting]

It was weird. All school year, I hardly minded a bit that I was single. At any rate, I was too busy to really be lonely, but I guess now that summer is here and the only thing I have going on is a part-time job, I have plenty of time to be lonely and to make it worse by watching all those wonderfully romantic movies that make me so darned cheerful, until I wake up and realize, yeah, that chick wasn't me... argh...

In all truth, it isn't so much that I mind being single. Actually, it's nice that I don't have to be worrying about if 'he' really loves me, etc., but what I do mind is the fact that I don't know what it's like NOT to be single. I would like to have my first kiss, go on a date in which I actually have feelings for the guy, and to have my first boyfriend. I'm not trying to marry myself off just yet, but I do want to experience a little bit of romance. Is that so much to ask? I dunno... maybe it is. And it really doesn't help that I've been dreaming that I'm in a relationship quite a few times in the last month or so...

Oh well. I'll get over it soon I'm sure. It goes against my personality to stay in one mood (depressed or ecstatic) for more than a week or two anyway...

91 Days Left of Being a Teenager! Yes!

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