Friday, January 03, 2003

[I need some prayer, if anyone ever reads this.]

I'm a little heartsick right now. I think I'm kind of lonely, you know, a little tired of never dating, etc. Keep in mind, I'm not asking for advice, I just need prayer. Besides, I've heard all the advice you could ever tell me, and I'm sure I'd have no problem reciting every piece to you. I don't know why it's getting to me so bad all of a sudden. I just have this feeling of, I want out of here, I want to go anywhere but here. I want to know what it's like to be in that kind of a relationship. I really believe that God would not allow me to have this desire if I wasn't meant to fall in love someday, and to be loved in return. That's a bit of a comfort and all, but that does nothing about this kind of slight depression, loneliness. Mind you, it's nothing severe, this depression. It's more of a sadness that comes and goes, and for now, it's here. I'm just a bit tired of watching everyone else experience "life". I have about a thousand other things to say about it, but I don't have the words to express this. Just pray, please. I know it will work.

And I'll probably delete this when I get over this pathetic state of mind.

Ok, I'm done venting. Thanks for reading.


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